My Emo Love Poem – 女孩日記

ok so I’m back again…because I felt like I should post my emo love poem too. I wrote this one back in January as well, but this one is in Mandarin. woot.

*so apparently I need to put this poem in context here…basically I wrote it when I was miserable about this guy I was trying to forget.

女孩日記

作者: Joan
語言: 國語
完成日期: 2008年1月28日

第一次看到你的臉
就知道你是下雨時
會讓我思念的藍天

有好幾次想心放開
大大方方跟你告白
但我没勇氣面對你
怕我們的回憶
對你再没意義

原來我們有緣無分
我實在想得太天真
現在只能躲在這裡
默默的祝福你
偷偷的愛著你

因為我終於明白了
只要你能幸福、滿足
什麼寂寞、痛苦都值的

Yay, My First Post

So instead of working on the unbelievable amount of homework and assignments I have waiting for me, I write my first post in my first blog that will actually have real meaning to me. In my youth, not too long ago, I had a xanga blog, but I used it only for the interest of social networking. I never really took them quite seriously and always wrote things FOR people to read. So today, inspired by my friend, I thought it would be cool to have a blog to write whatever I wanted, regardless of whether people read it or not. Sort of like a diary, but not, for the internet is indeed a sketchy place…I fear the monsters that lurk in the cyber-shadows.

Today has been kind of a weird day…nothing strange happened or anything, but I became passively contemplative during lunch time. That probably doesn’t make sense, but what I mean is that I plugged myself into my iPod, sat in the corner of the lunch room, and stared out the window with a blank mind, while my friends were all loud and social and playing hangman. I just…didn’t feel like being loud today. Maybe I’m just tired. Maybe…I’m not looking forward to getting my English test back tomorrow. Maybe I’m feeling overwhelmed by the intense workload. Actually, I’m not overwhelmed because I’ve come to accept the fact that university = work and there is nothing I can do about this truth. Horrible. But I’m okay. I have friends to get through all the shit with. Or so I believe…laugh. out. loud.

So now I really am getting tired, and I think I will end with a poem that I wrote in January about highschool graduation and the going-of-separate-ways to university. I am yearning for the company of my old friends, good old friends. Now I’m getting nostalgic. Okay. Here’s the poem. (It’s in Chinese, by the way. To be more specific, it is in Cantonese. yay.)

萬年不變

作者: Joan
語言: 粵語
完成日期: 2008年1月29日

那年温暖的秋天
我們在小學遇見
一起站在路邊
等着媽咪爹D

就從那一天開始
每日都一起happy
上學放學都可以
積聚了深厚的友誼

到達了今時今天
我們感情還未變
雖然遇過不少山崖邊
但我們的決心 絕不能阻止

明年不能天天見面
校服也再不會甩線
但我們的友情萬年不變
聖誕回府記著call me!